It's difficult to be always paranoid about stuff..
Like I said in one of my previous posts
Everyone tends to hate me after a while...
and even if I know I didn't do anything wrong
in fact, I didn't do anything at all..
I always think I'm to blame about stuff..
It'll take a while before it sinks in that I shouldn't be paranoid
but even then.. I still can't help but be paranoid.. even just a bit..