Please don't do that to me.. 

I was scared..

I thought for a moment something might have happened..

I wouldn't want to see you the way people do in movies..

I love you, so don't scare me like that

it was as if you were saying goodbye

I consider you as one of my closest friends

and I'm not ready to lose you

Bea: Tell me why you think you love him
Me: I know one of my main reasons... but it's a little too explicit for you
Bea: Then tell me in a way that it's not too much to handle
Me: Fine, actually it's not too explicit anyways.. I can't imagine us having sex.. With everyone else, it's easy.. but with him, I can't do it... and I don't know why

A Quick Update on my ILOCOS tour

The Ilocos trip did not go as I expected it to. Secrets were revealed.. Things were done... and Hopes that had been crushed were renewed...

Revelations:
We had a truth or dare after our drinking session. one of the questions asked to me was "Fuck, Marry, Kill." The Kill was a unanimous.. My F and M though were two of my biggest crushes... who were inside the room (one of  the conditions for FMK was that the person had to be in the room) so I said that I would Fuck Renz Casanova and Marry Carlo Rivera

Actions that can't be undone
Obviously, at one point, we stopped doing truths as it was very easy. So we started doing dares... some of my dares included these: Lick someone's lips, give a lap dance, rub your genitals on a piece furniture.. stuff like those.. needless to say.. it was fun, but I could have gone without it...

HOPE!
This one is gonna be a bit long so I shall make a second post and I will post it in the next few days... :D

I HATE YOU WITH A BURNING PASSION

AND I REGRET LOWERING MYSELF FAR BELOW YOU JUST TO SAY SORRY FOR THE SAKE OF OUR FRIENDSHIP. YOU ARE WORTHLESS TO ME NOW MORE THAN EVER.

YOU ARE NOT THE KING OF ANYTHING, YOU DO NOT OWN THE WORLD AND YOU DO NOT OWN ME.

IF IT'S A WAR YOU WANT, THEN IT'S A WAR YOU'LL LOSE.

I'm having a bit of trouble with people right now..

It's not their fault. It's mostly mine

Wrong choices and such..

and maybe overstepping my boundaries a bit

I still believe in what I said

a bit guilty..

but I know I was right

with the other people though

I know I was wrong...