A quick tour of my room

This is the room in my condo...

First off, here is my closet. On top are my bedsheets and such. On the left are polos, jackets and a suit folded underneath are towels on the right, from top to bottom are my shirts, pants and random stuff I don't know where to place. There are two more layers below.. those

this is my bookshelf area. These are only 1/4 of the books and comics I have. 

Top shelf are HP books, Philippine Constitution, W.I.T.C.H and K-zone, Pupung and Pugad Baboy

2nd row: Noli and El Fili, Ghostgirl series, a picture of me from hongkong, Hoofy (the xavier school mascot) a tiger notebook. alcogel and aftershave

bottome row: Twilight series (lolololol) Photo albums, dictionaries printer, water bottle and a hat i bought in china

Sorry for the mess but yeah this is my room... I just took out my sheets... and I was in a hurry to look for clothes for when I leave.

and lastly, the closed closet and the big ass mirror that was behind me

So okay.. I was testing out the zoom of my camera and here it is.. this is the farthest it can zoom

From where did I take a picture?

That's the clubhouse just right in front of our balcony.. i'm in my room

I was actually trying to take a picture of the guy behind him, but he suddenly moved.. 

 you can't see it in this pic but there's also a swimming pool just beside it.

and the last time I swam there, there were these pedophile-able kids =)))

so yeah...

No Uniforms for this week...

So apparently, over the week, my mom cleaned my room and kept all my uniforms in the upstairs bodega...  If I go and get it now, that would mean I need to clean my whole room all over again since that was my agreement with my mom...


So instead, I'm going for something a  little more subtle... :)


and a bit uncomfortable...

but we'll see if people notice...

at least the people who know me...

So this week...

I probably made myself stand out a bit more than usual...

Tuesday: All Blue - Blue shirt, blue shorts, blue filecase, blue envelope like object
Wednesday: Green Shirt and Green Shorts  + mountain dew.. which is also green
Friday - Suitcase in school. Strolled it from Agno to Tambayan then to LRT

I must say it feels good to feel like people are looking at you thinking "That guy is weird" and not giving a single fuck..

so for this week, I'm going back to grade school and high school! yay!

Monday: high school PE uniform
Tuesday: grade school uniform (I hope I get to buy khakis by then)
Wednesday: break from all that since not a lot of people are there on wednesdays
Thursday:: high school uniform
Friday: High school polo with PE shorts

The Last Scene in the most recent Doctor Who

This was one of the most powerful scenes in Doctor Who.... so much emotions... tears... :(((

as the Doctor enters, he notices something in his eye, something unfamiliar to him. Something he has not felt in more or less a hundred years.. the Doctor, for once, cried.. sure he had cried a dozen of times.. when Rose died, when he regenerated, when he lost everyone of his companions.. but this was different. he cried because he was, after all these years, HAPPY

Doctor Who Christmas Special: A short not-so-much-of-a review

So I was trying out how I can play AVI files on my PS3.. and the show that I played was Doctor Who 2011 Christmas Special.. Since I was only trying it out, I didn't want to watch the whole episode so I skipped to the last 10-15 minutes...

and it made me fuckin' cry...

to those who have not yet seen this episode, please do not read further as there will be MAJOR SPOILERS in this blog...

It's difficult to be always paranoid about stuff..
Like I said in one of my previous posts
Everyone tends to hate me after a while...
and even if I know I didn't do anything wrong
in fact, I didn't do anything at all..
I always think I'm to blame about stuff..
It'll take a while before it sinks in that I shouldn't be paranoid
but even then.. I still can't help but be paranoid.. even just a bit..

January 22, 2012

I had another dream...

All I can remember about it is me having a not so surprise birthday party

Having a new house with WG people living in it

Kim pestering me to eat turon

My crush buying turon for me

I was a superhero along with 3 other people
we had this gun that was used to transform
problem was..
the villain was really really strong
so we upgraded the guns, but it didn't work
it's like the pokemon thing where even if your pokemon is lvl. 100,
as long as you don't have the right badges, you can't use them properly..
So that happened..
and everyone tried shooting him but to no avail
so I restarted my gun and started shooting him until he died..

Fortune Cookie tells good fortune

Project yourself with confidence and people will naturally flock to you
Nobody likes a loser

Because Potato

I feel like I need to let out some frustrations.. so I will blog...

I don't know how t start this off since I'm really really bad at writing..

I haven't even thought of what to say and I'm starting to cry..

it's just that.. I am jealous

I am jealous of almost every person I meet

For years, it felt like no one loved me.. That I was all alone in this world..
it was the case ever since I was in 3rd grade..

My dad had left for the US,
my mom started studying
and my classmates started bullying me that I was gay
I was a kid who cried at the slightest things,
sure it made me cry that I was bullied,
but at the end of the day,
it felt like nothing happened...
like it was just a dream
and that i can go back to being happy again...

but as time passed me by
I realized how lonely and alone I always am.
I never had a yaya after my dad left..
so every night, I'd be alone in my room..
I'd fall asleep before my mom gets home..
go to school the next morning
play with friends
and in the afternoon, while waiting for the schoolbus, I'd be alone..
I had to wait 2 hours everyday just because we grade schoolers were dismissed earlier than the high schoolers..
I was never one for making friends with people unless thay made friends with me..
I was too shy..
so I was alone..
but again, I didn't mind any of it..
that's how life is..
you have to make sacrifices...
frankly, I can call myself the boy who waited (Doctor Who reference)

but then, high school came and the black sheep was tossed out of the sheep pen..
Barrages of insults, jokes and teases from schoolmates and teachers..
yes, you read correctly, teachers..
it was hard to bear

I had BO when i was in high school..
i'm not sure if I do now..
but people don't seem to tell me that anymore..
add to that the fact that I had to repeat a year
on top of all those, I was gay..
and I was and still am fat...

I had the worst combination of anything bad you can possibly think of..
I never made friends more than what I already had cause I was afraid that they would hate me
eventually, people will start hating me

in 3rd year, I was front and center in the classroom...
and the ones behind me and beside me were the ones who bullied me..
this was the seating arrangement my teacher picked out for us..
On the first day, I didn't want to sit there
so I hid in the bathroom
and cried
for three straight periods

the worst part about the class was that I had a teacher who would spray air freshener everytime he walked in and everyone would cheer.
he would then spend the first 10-20 minutes of class discussing how bad the smell was and how the class can try to get rid of it

during our Days with the Lord..
the retreat that was supposed to "change our live forever"
did nothing to me..
I did not feel any closer to god..
nor did my other classmates..

When high school ended..I was not able to march.. I was not allowed to march during graduation
something that upto now, I do not understand why
There were 20+ of us who had to take summer classes and out of those 20+ people
only 2 weren't able to march.

I made a letter...
a formal request to my teacher saying I wanted to march i don't care if I have to take summer classes.. I just wanted to march..
he rejected it right in front of my face
I went to the principal..
i told her I can prove that t'm worth of graduating and that I should march
she rejected it
Last resort was with the school director
I came in for the interview.. I brought my uniform just in case I will be allowed to march.. if I would, then I can immediately join the grad practive
He loved me.. my talk went great..
I had a glimmer of hope
but the next day,
it was denied..

I don't get it.. clearly everyone else except the two of us proved they were worthy of being able to march
why couldn't we do the same thing?
You can't say that "I was give too many chances"
because I'm not the only retainee who took summer classes
that guy was a fuckin' idiot..
a lunatic who threw a bottle out the window for his speech and almost hitting a car.. because he was portraying a drunk Romeo
he's the guy jumped out the ledge because he portrayed a suicidal Romeo...
Yes, he did his speech twice cause he didn't like how his first speech went...

GODDAMMIT...

lost my mood to write because my mom pissed me off just now..

I NEED CRITIQUES...

I know I suck at making poems..
but like what Lorri told me the other day...
practice makes perfect..
so after XXXX number of years...
I have made 2 poems
I need your criticisms on it

please and thank you :)

So before I show it, I'll explain a bit...
This was brought about by boredom in class
see, we had this article about an immigrant who is struggling with her 2 main langages
Filipino and English..
her audience are Australians which means she needed to speak in English, but in this process she loses her sense of being FIlipino..
she likens it to a wishbone.. even if you have two parts, once you break it down, one will be bigger than the other...
so the question is.. which side of her will be bigger than the other.. The English or the Filipino.. so yeah...
it's mostly in Filipino and a lot of the lines are herp derp
it sounded good to me when I was writing it..


Nagkukubli

O ikaw na bagong lalang
henerasyon ng bagong lyriko't musika
bakit ako'y iyong tinalikuran
aking bibig ay tinakpan
ikinahihiya mo ba ako
isang kantang wala nang saysay
sa iyong isip ako'y namamatay
tulad ng Latin na wala nang buhay


Mas madadalian ka ba kung ako'y makisama
salita ko'y iparang sa iba
mga letrang hindi ko maunawa
mga pantig at tunog banyaga


Nkatago sa banyagang intendidad
ang mga dating Pilipino na ngayo'y Filipino
O, aking anak, asan na ang iyong bayang mahal
halika't balikan nang hindi makalimutan


Ngunit kahit saan ang ating puntahan
kahit sariling tahanan ako'y kinalimutan
ang aking aray, hindi naririnig
humiyaw man ako sa sakit
daing ko'y natitiis


Oh, how I remember my youth
A time of bloodsheds and dispute
I can see how time passes me by
how people forget me
and how I try to conform


My lyrics are no longer heard
My song has become silent
My melody is dead to you


Long gone is the day I will be remembered
but I shall wait
as long as a spark is lighted
what was once divided
can be reunited

Daglat

Pagdadaglat isang uri ng pagpapaikli

ang mga letra sa salita ay kukulangin

at papalitan ng kudlit

ang dating 'noon ay' na napakaiksi

ay nagiging 'noo'y' na walang letrang A

tila tayo ay kinukulang ng letra at pantig

nagtitipid, nagtitiis nagtatawag pansin

Isa kaya 'tong hiyaw ng ating puso

'pang sabihing tayo'y hindi kumpleto

''nti-'nting nawawalan ng pgkatao

paikli ng paikli ang mga slita

prang knuklang ng hninga

i2 ba'ng 2ny na Plpino

ika nga'y Juan Tamad

HELLO PEOPLE!

I'm back to blogging! at least for three days..
then I go back to my condo where internet is not readily available

Actually it is, but I refuse to pay 30pesos an hour!

I am a poor boy

2 days ago, I paid for leap stuff and I was left with 20pesos...

so i borrowed from Eri.. which I haven't paid...

I'm sorry, eri

I borrowed another 100 from Blanche

which means I owe her 50 since she owed me 50 =)))

GAAAH! Must learn to save

on a lighter note.. our first GA as project heads was a success! YAY!

Evaluation was really high

IDK if it's because the evaluator was new or what

STILL COUNTS!

Concerts and Such

If you don't consider the Variety Show of the Xavier School Fair a concert, then Simple Plan was the first concert of my WHOLE LIFE

I'm not one to be in a party mood unless I'm drunk.. and clearly, I cannot be drunk in this concert... Well I can, but I prefer not to be... So all I did was sit, sing along with the songs that I know, tap my legs to the beat and clap. Do not expect me to jump around or scream cause I can never bring myself to do it.

I had a blast at the concert. That I'm 140% sure of. I remember Simple Plan WAY WAY WAY back... but I never really appreciated any of their songs except Perfect. I knew their songs, but didn't really like it that much. This concert gave me a chance to start liking Simple Plan again.. Seriously, it may be the first concert I've been to... and if I'm stubborn it might be the last, but I gotta say, I love Simple Plan <3

Broadway!

I'm currently listening to broadway music... RENT, Wicked, Beauty and The Beast, Moulin Rouge, Hairspray, Les Miserables, Dreamgirls

I would really love to get a chance to watch something, ANYTHING live on broadway.... I would most especially love it if it was RENT or Les Miserables...

The only play I've seen live is Into The Woods in Music Museum.. 2009, i think?

I wanna watch more. I would spend all I have just to watch. The problem is I don't know anyone who would want to go with me. I don't want to be a loner.. hahaha

but you know what would be more awesome? If I could get to star in one of these productions! OMG1 even if it was just one of the extras LOLOLOL... it's not that  achievable for me right now, but it can't hurt to dream 

XD

INTERNET!

I now have internet but it's really slow due to the fact that the signal is low...

I'm so happy this week because of so many things... It's quite overwhelming..

and to think, 2 years ago, just to pass time, I would sleep in the school bathroom..

I can't be too detailed about this week but here's a gist of things that made me happy

1. Today, Angie was able to enroll! yay! All she needs to do now is to pay and she can officially start class.
2. I now have a condo that's just across Lasalle.. It was weird actually. We were eating in EGI a while ago and as soon as I went out *BOOM* it was right in front of me... LOLOLOLOL
3. Mashitta with Jonnah, Blanche, KimChard, Lorri, Carlos and Raph at night. It's not the first time I've eaten with them at night, but it felt good that I didn't need to worry about being home late.
4. Blanche thinking I fit in to the category of Llama Lords.. I've seen the list of things you need to be qualified as a Llama Lord and a lot of it didn't really fit me... but apparently Blanche and Lorri think I fit the bill
5. My FILGENS class might be dissolved. It's not that I hate the class. It's actually quite fun.. but having to run from Miguel to Andrew in 10 minutes isn't advisable.. plus, there are only 16 of us.Plus, it means I might be able to enroll in another subject. *crosses finger*
6. I'm able to save up a lot of money recently. That turned out to be a fail today since I spent up all that I saved on Noriter and Army Navy, but at least I know I have the capacity to save 70% of my daily allowance.. That's a good thing since I need to save money for my debut this year.. LOLOLOL
7. I don't want to reveal this one, but I felt so loved when this group of people told me that they would be glad to take me with them <3 Too bad I can't go.... at least not yet.. LOLOLOL I'm pretty sure someone will get this hahaha

That's all for now, I guess...

Hoping for more happiness tomorrow and on Friday <3

There is a big ass mirror behind me..

To those who know me well, I am not a fan of mirrors

I do not like them one bit

anything reflective, actually

I'm scared something might pop out...

Which is why, for 20 years, There has been no mirror in my room..

and for 5 years, I cover the TV with a jacket every time I finish watching..

I was initially planning to cover it with Manila Paper...

but I apparently have none...

So I'm stuck here being a bit paranoid about that mirror...

DAMN IT, IT'S AS TALL AS ME..

ANYTHING CAN POP OUT FROM THERE

Odd Coincidence

... I've been watching movies that star Justin Timberlake...

Friends with Benefit

Bad Teacher

and, in a while, In Time

This blog is becoming shitty..

So instead of me just posting random stuff.. I'll do what Angie does... categorically blog about things.. trololol.. basta.. you get my point...

Anyways... here's a list of the things that I might do

Movie Reviews
Stalker Mode (LOLOLOL.. it's something I've wanted to blog about since forever)
Photo Essays
Short Stories (I won't do that much, but it's worth a try)
Weekly Music List

Yeah... I still don't know what I'm doing but these are basically it... feel free to suggest something you might want me to blog about.

Oh and I'm starting with the movie reviews right now :D

January 4, 2011

Lately I've been dreaming of Writers' Guild people one by one... IDK why...

So here goes...

I was with my Trish's little brother, Rap and we were at my friend's school fair. Usually, in school fairs, each class has this booth which they man to earn a bit of money. In this case, Trish's booth was a pachinco booth. I told her brother that we should go there and play the game.

Rap: Why?
Me: Sa sister mo kaya yan
Rap: Weh?
Me: Oo nga.. sige na, pumunta ka na dun.

Then I was in her house which was odd because her house had two structures. One was the main house and the other was another house which was exclusive to my friend and I had never seen before.

After the fair, we apparently bought groceries and went to her house. As usual, her dogs scared the living shit out of me as it keeps barking and trying to bite my leg. The weird thing about the dog is that they looked like Palkia and Dialga (Yes, the legendary pokemon that governs space and time)

We chatted a little and a few moments later, I asked her if she'd be fine alone in this house and she said "Yes, my parents are in the other house, just lock the door when you leave."

Odd thing about the lock, it locks from the outside.. as if it was a prison for her..

So I left.. and locked the door too

Next thing I know I was with my other friend, Sheqz.. and I was telling her how I haven't slept for nearly 48 hours.. She said she wanted visit Trish, but I said I really needed to sleep...

Then Richard comes in. We are apparently in someone's house again and I was sitting right in front of him. He said the moe called up and wanted to talk about the party

Me: what party?
Richard: The party before term starts and the Simple Plan concert
Me: O.o Why do we need a party for that
Richard: I don't know.. I was just told about it..
*silence*
*me thinking*
Me: Well I can't cook if that's what you called me here for.. unless it's gonna be in someone elses house
Richard: Why not yours?
Me: Well cooking won't be hard in our house, we have 8 stoves, but the space is too small
Richard: Well our house is smaller (This one was odd cause i've been to Richard's house and it's not small)
Me: You see this table, it's probably just 4 times bigger than this.
Richard: Yeah right
Me: Seriously, you can check it out for yourself..


and that's when it ended

December 31, 2011

I had the weirdest dream mainly because it had JB in it.. and by JB, I mean Blanche's JB...

*Whenever I retell a dream, this isn't the exact dream I had. I would have added minor details to make the dream have a bit more sense. But rest assured, the dream is still legit.

It basically started in a Japanese style home. The old ones, not the modern ones. There was a table in the middle and it had a few cups of tea. Around it were some people but the only one I could recognize was Angie.

Suddenly, there was a knock on the door, someone opened it and JB was there. Now, it wasn't exactly JB as it did not look like him, but I knew in my gut that it was him (later on, he begins to look a lot more like himself)

We leave the room for a while to chat and when we came back, we saw Angie upset. Apparently, the tea had been taken away and she doesn't know where it was. So we console her for a while. We then look for the missing tea which we inevitably could not find (so much for being Sherlock.. hahaha)

The scene suddenly changes into a garage wherein we find ourselves *doing something non-sexual but I would not say because it may leave a scar in your mind that will never leave.*. So apparently, we had become close friends.

We chat for a while about non-sense stuff.. things that I could not remember.. next thing we know, the place is already crowded with lots of people because we *apparated* to Lasalle... He went to class and so did I, but a few minutes into the class, he was sitting beside me.

~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
I asked him why he wasn't in class and he said "I wanted to talk to you about Blanche"

I freaked out a bit not knowing what to say. He then goes on saying "What if I court her?"

I asked him why he was asking me this and he said "well, you know blanche better than I do.."

I told him I didn't know... and he asked me "what if I court you?"

I said yes and we got married and lived happily ever after..





TROLOLOLOL
Just trolling you, blanche,
the dream ends when we go our separate ways to class

Most of my blog views are from Russia... WHY?

BACK FROM CHINA!

I will blog about these next few days...

as of now, let me just greet everyone a

HAPPY NEW YEAR!
XIN NIAN KUAI LI
MANIGONG BAGONG TAO!